My Inner Child

It’s been a while since I’ve written a blog. I’ve been busy getting stronger and healing from so many life changes in the past couple of years. I thought I’d give a quick update on what I’ve been up. I’ll also be sharing a poem that explains a little bit of my journey, recently.

I’ve been working very hard on getting the PTSD/Anxiety/Depression/Complex Greif symptoms under control and it’s been quite the journey. I’ve been writing a book and am excited to finish it (almost finished!) and I’m looking forward to getting it published. I’ve been going to classes and am now a certified peer support specialist and hopefully by the end of this month will be a credentialed master class life coach. So lots of exciting changes happening right now!

In the past 6 months or so, I’ve been seeing a trauma therapist who has helped me so much in my healing and he’s also still working with me and teaching me how to love myself and also teaching me how NOT to blame myself for so many terrible things that have happened. Through him, I’ve gotten to know my “inner child” and nurture and love that inner child like I needed to be nurtured when I was young. I’m learning to give that little Missy some grace. She is still trying to protect me and now that I’m an adult, I don’t need that type of protection anymore. The inner child protection shows itself in the form of anxiety, fight, flight or freeze. Those coping skills were very useful when I was young, but they are hindering me now. So, with my inner child in mind, I wrote this poem, and I hope you enjoy it. I hope you can relate to it because if you can relate, then you are healing as well. Until the next blog, take care of yourself. You are so important, and you are so loved!

Little Guardian

By Missy Belshe

In the quiet corners of my soul,

Where fears and shadows take hold,

There dwells a child, so pure and bright,

A beacon in the foggy night.

Her love for me like a gentle breeze,

She whispers comfort through the trees,

 To calm my fears she holds me tight

And chases away my every fright.

This inner child, with tender grace,

Stands guard against this world I face,

With courage earned way too young,

She learned to cope and hold her tongue

Walls were built, strong and stout,

Protecting me from the shadows about

And every hurt, she’d gently mend,

To my brokenness she would tend.

All the moments when the world seemed bleak,

Life would beat me until I was weak

My inner child, with steadfast might,

Would hold me close, through the night.

With a mighty voice that would not cower

She’d remind me of my super powers

In her embrace, I found my peace,

A bond that time shall never cease.

This woman can now handle the fear

Give the inner child she holds so dear

A reprieve of all the work she’s done

Passing the torch to the grown one

Fight or flight is needed no more,

That fear that lived so long in her core

Yes, the woman can handle it from here

You can rest now, child, with nothing to fear

So here I stand, both young and old,

With tales of wonder left untold,

And in my heart, forever free,

My inner child no longer protecting me.