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I feel You Top off, music loud in your jeep Words to every song a memory I weep at the empty passenger seat Through the wind, I feel you...

<p>It&#8217;s been a while since I&#8217;ve written a blog. I&#8217;ve been busy getting stronger and healing from so many life changes in the past couple of years. I thought I&#8217;d give a quick update on what I&#8217;ve been up. I&#8217;ll&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2025/03/06/my-inner-child/#more-827">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>NICKS POEM You told me you were fineYou smiled all the timeI should have followed my gutThat regret’s my deepest cutYou brought so much colorOur humor fed off each otherYour laugh would bring me joyMy sweet curly headeded boyYour hugs&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2023/09/18/nicks-poem/#more-824">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>Warning: Possible Trigger Topics The dreaded August 28th is coming up in a few days. I&#8217;ve been going back and forth on what I wanted to write. We all know it was inevitable I was going to write something as&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2023/08/25/what-does-one-year-look-like-after-losing-my-child/#more-811">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>I spent this weekend at my sister&#8217;s house, a couple of hours south of where I live. I always look forward to that 2-hour drive for a few reasons. Its flat where I live, and I love the hills and&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2023/04/16/a-different-way-home/#more-800">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>Today marks 6 months since I&#8217;ve hugged my son. 1/2 a year since I&#8217;ve heard &#8220;I love you too, mama&#8221;. It feels like just yesterday I talked to him on the phone and told him how proud I was of&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2023/02/28/6-months-feels-like-yesterday/#more-786">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>People don&#8217;t tell you about the thousands of daily mind and emotional battles that go along with grieving someone close to you. They don&#8217;t tell you about the gritty little details of the messy, chaotic, lonely, silent, loud, terrifying, gut&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2022/12/30/but-you-were-just-here/#more-774">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>It&#8217;s been 2 months (yesterday) since losing my boy. I have so many people sending me messages to check up on me and I am so blessed that people care enough to take time out of their day to make&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2022/10/24/how-are-you-doing-2-months-after-losing-my-boy/#more-763">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>In the distance I see him up ahead My curly headed young man I cry out his name, but instead He keeps walking as fast as he can I walk faster but with each stride His steps are two to&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2022/10/14/ill-see-you-in-my-dreams/#more-756">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>I have always heard from more seasoned parents that you aren&#8217;t supposed to be best friends with your kids. I tried. I really did. Nick had a way of making everyone his best friend, including his mama. He was always&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2022/09/20/see-you-later-my-precious-boy/#more-746">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>Hello my fellow weirdos! I&#8217;m checking in to see how you all are doing! It&#8217;s been many months since I&#8217;ve written, and that is a personal gift from me to you.  I didn&#8217;t want to hop on here in the&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2020/08/27/2020-youve-been-consistent-in-drama-queening/#more-711">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>It&#8217;s been a while! I&#8217;m reading through my December post titled &#8220;2019 You&#8217;ve Been Quite The Ride&#8221; and apparently I had no idea what 2020 had in store! I normally write a blog once a month but to be honest,&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2020/04/15/isolation-and-depression/#more-701">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>Is it an age thing or is it just me? My life seems to be moving faster than a teenager at a busted tailgate party.  Wasn&#8217;t yesterday the beginning of Summer?  The year of 2019 has been a doozy, filled&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2019/12/02/2019-you-have-been-quite-the-ride/#more-684">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>Parenting Fail&#8230;.Bad Mom&#8230;..What Am I Doing Wrong&#8230;. These are all phrases I&#8217;ve heard people say and are statements I&#8217;ve read on social media within the past few days by people I know personally. These thoughts have actually been running through&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2019/10/01/mom-fails-and-brain-injuries/#more-674">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>If you follow my blogs, you know I&#8217;m a very honest person.  Sometimes to a fault.  I talk about things that may bite me in the trunk someday but I do it because I want others to know they are&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2019/08/13/i-dropped-my-basket/#more-662">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>I&#8217;m getting old.  I can see it physically (I smelled chocolate yesterday and gained 6 lbs), I can FEEL it physically (No, Susan, I&#8217;m not popping popcorn, my knees are trying to support my body as I climb the stairs), &#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2019/07/10/lord-help-me-be-a-nice-person/#more-660">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>I used to carry the heaviest burden on my shoulders and it weighed me down like carrying rocks in a backpack and this burden was mom guilt.  I&#8217;ve done things as a parent I regret.  I&#8217;ve been divorced, I&#8217;ve yelled,&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2019/05/17/im-only-human-parenting/#more-657">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>Life is full of twists and turns, ups and downs, surprises and change.  Wouldn&#8217;t life be a bore without these things?  Sometimes we don&#8217;t like these ups and downs but in my, ahem, seasoned age, I have learned that if&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2019/04/04/merry-go-round-or-roller-coaster/#more-655">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>When you look in the mirror, what are some of the thoughts that immediately come to mind about yourself?  If I were to guess, my guess would be a majority of you are a tad too hard on yourselves. If&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2019/03/03/reflection-in-the-mirror-cupcakes-vs-gym-2/#more-654">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>

<p>I wrote this poem about depression today.  I have talked to many people lately suffering and these words flooded my mind so I had to stop and write them down.  Though my poems are not of prize winning quality, they&#8230; <a class="more-link" href="https://keepingitrealjourney.wordpress.com/2019/02/04/where-are-you/#more-648">Continue Reading &rarr;</a></p>