Nick's Poem

NICKS POEM

You told me you were fine You smiled all the time I should have followed my gut That regret’s my deepest cut You brought so much color Our humor fed off each other Your laugh would bring me joy My sweet curly headeded boy Your hugs were the absolute best I’ve missed those since I laid you to rest What I wouldn’t do for one more day I wish I could’ve begged you to stay I would’ve gotten on my knees Stay with me my boy, please, PLEASE!!!! I would’ve taken your place, no doubt But you shielded yourself and kept me out I’m not sure I can handle this pain I feel Some days it still doesn’t seem real Some days I feel you are away at school But the darkest truth feels so cruel I will never again see you come home You will never again call me on the phone I try to live to make you proud of me I’m trying so hard but you see? The hole you left in my heart It won’t heal as long as we are apart I look for you everywhere I go Sometimes I see you but I know That child belongs to another mother And I know that child I must not bother I know now, that you were never mine I got to borrow you for a short time I will get to embrace you again someday But that day seems a million miles away Until then I want to say with tears I’m so sorry I couldn’t calm your fears I was supposed to protect you from the bad I failed you and that’s what makes me so sad I love you Nick with every piece of me See you later in Heaven to live with you for eternity

By: Mama (Missy Belshe)